Problem is, I am not sure. I have very little experience with relationship. My ex husband was my first, and since I am extremely shy and introverted, it was pure luck we have ever met. Unfortunately, our marriage didn't work out. My second "sort-of-relationship" was, of course, with my best friend (since I knew him well), and that is the problem. I have no real idea what I want and what I am looking for. I have barely any experience.
My life is not normal, and at this point, I doubt it will ever be. I am confused and really don't have anyone to talk to. Right now, I would mostly like to know what would be good for me, and to find a way for my life to function normally (if possible). I am tired and alone, I do everything alone, I think my child resents me, I see no bright future for me. This failing relationship is just the tip of the iceberg.