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Originally Posted by Waterbear
Hello. I just wanted to share that it took about 9 months for me to just feel vaguely comfortable acknowledging that there is a child part of me inside, let alone accepting that she is hurt or trying to talk to her. It is a slow going process that I don't think can be rushed. My inner child is not trusting of me at all and I need to be pretty cautious in that area. My T is great too and that helps hugely.
When my first T mentioned the little girl I ran a mile and dissociated massively, I don't know how long I was gone for but I went to a really dark place and even when I was kind of back in the room it took me an age to properly come round. To be honest I probably shouldn't have driven home and T did say I could stick around in the building for as long as I wanted but I wasn't brave enough for that.
Anyway, I just wanted to share that progress is possible because I have gone from that response to now being able to try to listen to her and give her what she needs. Certainly not a finished article but we have come on leaps and bounds in this area. Tiny steps, one bird at a time. I hope you can be patient with yourself as you try to do this and that you can reach her and start to make peace if that is what is needed.
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I have to admit I think my therapist is a little weird