I just don't feel like I belong anywhere. It's not only the BP, but Asperger's, and social anxiety and awkwardness. I often feel awkward at the religious facility I attend (no names, but I'm a US born Italian-American following a 5,000 year old South Asian religion ). I've been overwhelmingly welcomed by everyone, but my own demons often make me feel uncomfortable, because about the only westerner who attends. I know it's my problem, no one else's.