Even if you stop the meds instantly, they won't be out of your body instantly. Might as well deal with the fact that you'll have to buck up and deal with them one way or another.

In IP you have no choice, and the only way they'll let you out is if you're med-compliant. There is no other option. If not, they'll have you committed and if you think things are bad now, you've got a long way to go yet)

Once you've gone through that and assuming you're med compliant and have been released, this is the point at which you start having options.

But just know that right now, in the mental state you're in, you have one option. Take the meds and try to behave like a normal human being. To do anything else is either stupid or psychotic - from my experience it's usually been a mix of both. I've been there.

Good luck. One more thing - if you want to go home as quickly as possible, stop using the word angel. Real to you or not, just keep it to yourself.