I know I tend towards narcissism because of my intelligence and have worked really hard to be open to new perspectives. Nevertheless what I am talking about is how my father's modeling damaged me . Now when I try to get along in Christian society, support communities for the mentally ill , or recovery communities for substance abusers, it's implied I'm narcissistic . It's so complicated. In some places I'm a trusted servant, in others I'm finally beginning to speak after years, and on top of all that I've been given new responsibilities to help people with personality disorders, their families and people recovering from narcissistic abuse. It's a lot .