OK so most times I don't have OCD-like symptoms that really interfere with my life but sometimes I do. And by interfere I mean things like not working, eating, sleeping, going to school, etc.

Mostly I seem to be obsessive or ruminative but I don't know if these are the same things, or if they are symptoms of my other disorders. (The diagnoses I have that I'm working with are Complex PTSD, Other Specified Dissociative Disorder-1, Depression, and ADHD.) I do have some compulsions such as touching things/tapping, rubbing until my skin is raw, or visiting the same websites again and again. (The worst was one day about a month ago where I was 'locked in a pattern' for 18 hours). But again, I don't know if these are maybe symptoms of my other disorders.

While I know the behaviors are problematic part of me also finds them pleasurable, and I don't think this is typical for OCD. Because my OCD-like symptoms aren't consistent I'm thinking they might be related to Complex PTSD or Other Specified Dissociative Disorder-1 (i.e., me or a fragment trying to process trauma or withdraw/avoidance symptoms). Or perhaps some of my OCD-like symptoms are ADHD related.

At any rate I need tools to address these symptoms because when they are present they can really derail me. (After having a pretty good month I missed school yesterday and today because of symptoms!) I haven't really seen descriptions of obsessions/rumination online and I don't know if being GENERALLY obsessive/ruminative/getting caught on thoughts or in thought loops is consistent with OCD. My specific obsessions lately are mental health focused. I also haven't seen visiting the same websites looking for new information described as a type of OCD compulsion. So I guess I'm just wondering if some of what I've described is similar to how some people on this forum experience OCD.

If I have OCD I think I'll have to address stabilizing Other Specified Dissociative Disorder-1 and Complex PTSD in therapy first, but if there are meds I could take that would help stabilize my OCD-like symptoms I'd like to have access to them!