I am so sorry you are having to go through this, and I can sincerely say I know exactly where you are coming from, my ex fiance' came to me a month ago one week before our 7 year anniversary and told me she thought it would be best if I left, because she had lost herself, and felt like we had grown apart and like she had grown away from me. and didn't feel like she could work on her and finding herself with me there. and I didn't fit into her equation anymore. I had no idea she felt this way, I thought things were fine, she had been telling me in texts how much she loved me and missed and wanted to be home with me while she was at work during the day, and she'd tell me while she was with me how much she loved me, we were affectionate, and intimate...nothing pointed toward her feeling this way, but she told me she had felt that way for months and months....so it came as a huge blow to me..

I am still having a very hard time dealing with it, the grief is still very strong, I think it will take a very long time for me to get over it, if I ever do. not necessarily get over it, but for it to ease up.... I don't know that I will ever open my heart to anyone and trust again, like I did with her...She is the love of my life, I still love her unconditionally and I always will..but I have had to accept she doesn't want to be with me and I am going to have to accept that as hard as it might be.