You sound like a male version of what I was in high school. I was not in my first romantic relationship until a few months after graduation. The only time I felt like I fit in was in marching band, but even there, if I wasn't in uniform I was nothing like anyone else. I longed to fit in, be in a romantic relationship, date, party, have fun, but it just didn't work. What you are going through is far more common than you know. Some of those mistakes (especially the sexual ones) your classmates are making seem like typical teenage activity now, but could affect their lives negatively far into the future. Get through the rest of high school and go to college... join organizations... take all kinds of different classes, see where you fit in life. You are at the perfect age to have a variety of tastes and are going to do much better in the future than if you limit yourself. I know, I"m some old 27 year old chick and probably "don't understand" - that's how I wouldv'e felt at 17 hearing this, but I do understand. Times change and the music and styles change but the feelings that go along with teen life remain. Sometimes not fitting in as a teen makes for a healthier adult. Just get through high school and look forward to college where everyone can find a place for themselves!