Took a shower for the first time in 12 days I'm questioning my bipolarity vs. just psychosis. Whether my lack of interacting with others, no motivation, and sleeping is a depressed thing or not. I see new T next Wednesday and new pdoc next Thursday. I don't want to. I want to keep my shot and that's it. I like thinking everything is fine even if it's not. I don't want to go to the appointments alone, I'm dreading it.