So, after all that, I managed to duck out of therapy this week (first time... ever actually). I'm not sure it was a conscious bit to avoid addressing the rest of what was in the journal as much as it was... um... I guess, running away?
I took the tiny opportunity afforded by t mentioning having a cold and cancelled the session. At the time, I was already running late, and I used the excuse that I don't want to be sick. Looking back, I think it might have been a bit more loaded than that. It was a difficult week in terms of scheduling. I would have only been half-invested as I needed to work right after t.I wouldn't have brought up anything of substance, nor would I have wanted to talk about anything left over from the journal... of course, the next day I kinda regretted the choice. There are things I probably would have addressed, but it was bad timing that day... we'll see what next week brings (though that schedule is also a mess on my end as I'm picking up an extra shift right after session. I normally like to leave therapy for days I don't work)...

I dunno. I'm glad I showed her the journalast, I just wish I had the courage to keep the dialogue going around the content of it.