So after taking a week off therapy, I decided that I missed T too much and wanted to go back to weekly sessions. It turns out that T is on leave next week so it was a good thing that I got to see her this week. Anyway, I digress. During the session I read T a bunch of things I had written down which included some questions that I had been avoiding asking. The questions were things like, do you like me, what do you think of me, when will I know that I don't need therapy anymore stuff like that. T and I talked about the questions and what they mean for me and that sort of thing but T never actually answered any of them. She is a psychodynamic T so I understand that not answering questions is kind of part that but it is really annoying.

I want T to hug me and tell me everything is okay. I just want her to reassure me and make everything better. I spoke to T about all of this too and while it was comforting to hear her understand and validate my feelings I know she still wont ever do any of those things that I want from her. I don't know how I am supposed to work through feeling this way. I'm trying really hard to develop a healthy attachment to T so that I can hopefully do the same in other relationships but I have no idea how. I am just so caught up in this obsession with T.