I to am divorced from 2005. (10 yrs and three step daughter`s) First yrs were fantastic, happy doing the house up, telling bed-time stories too the two young girls. I felt wanted and needed! (Bliss) `But` the last couple of yrs it started going down hill, as my demons (Loss, Hatred, Guilt, Crying, abandonment, Why it happened and the feeling of being un-loved, Again!!) and an un-healthy sexual desire (My fetish from the age of 6yrs) was once again rearing its ugly heads again!!!!!!!!
Now I would rather be on my own, as this will stop me hurting anybody else and the one`s I so dearly love. (My brother and his family) He is worried about me `But` he can never understand on what I am going through!!!
I wish I could be normal like other people!!!! I hate being the way I am, too me this is so seedy and wrong!!!.........................................