He told me he always believed he would die violently. He didn't die in the car wreck. Almost but didn't. thank god. I just think if he goes off again he will end his life. It seems to be the pattern. He becomes psychotic and get into altercations he can't win. This all just started in june. By that time he lost his gf in january due to his behavior. Than he lost his job in april. By june he was completely manic, got arrested, went to a psych ward for two weeks than went home. Two weeks later he drove his car into a the front of a brick building going about 90 miles per hour. When he's not psychotic he's ok. He can be good with his sons and even be kind to me. I think the use of weed set him off. He isn't a regular pot smoker. His gf thought it was a good idea. NOT It just doesn't seem that he is making his way back. I am afraid he will kill himself if he gets into another psychotic state. I love my son. And I see him still in there. I just wish he would come back.