im so sorry you lost your kitty chalmette. i lost my dog in July. i had had her for 13 years. it is such a painful thing to let another being leave us for a more peaceful place. especially when we are the ones to let them go. i really do empathise. i believe your kitty is in a more peaceful place now though. i just hope we can all reach a place like that when we go.
take care
biiv