I'm supposed to get my picture taken today for the yearbook at the school where I work. I realized I just can't do it. It's not vanity, the fact is that i just plain hate everything about myself. I'm overweight, middleaged, and just plain a mess!
I'm sitting here after telling my principal that i just can't do it, and may need to cut back on hours. I just plain despise everything about myself! I hate this illness that steals all the pleasure in my life! I hate my weakness! I'm just plain tired of this existence! I just want to be done with it all. I'm once again, circling the drain... why doesn't it all stop!