For over two months I have been depressed, and lately it has been getting much worse. Before that I had a horror mixed episode. I haven't felt stable in a long time and I am getting tired of it all. My pdoc put me on Cymbalta two weeks ago and all I feel is more exhausted and anxious. Lamogtrogine (lamictal) didn't help, neither did Prozac. I see my pdoc in two weeks but I don't know what else can be done. I feel deep despair and hopelessness.

Every morning I wake exhausted, deeply depressed and very sore all over my body (I have Fibromyalgia). This is after 9 hours sleep. Ritalin picks me up from about 11am to 5pm but I am still barely functional. Somehow I manage to study one unit and work part time. Tonight at work I felt panic and dissociation. I wanted to run but managed to stay due to Clonazepam. It is getting worse. I feel so alone. I guess I wrote this to get some support.

I do all I can to manage the depression. I exercise, eat well, socialise, do things I used to enjoy(I enjoy nothing right now), meditate and keep up with study and work. Doing all this is an extreme struggle. My motivation is so low. I don't know how much longer I can keep going. I am so overwhelmed. But i will continue to fight. I don't want to give up. Still, I feel myself getting more unwell. What do I do?