I am 23 and my mother passed away a few days ago (at age of 57).

I feel simply terrible. Nothing like that had ever happened to me before. I was too young when both my grandfathers and grandmothers passed away. Learning that and having to go to the funeral was devastating for me.

And I'm starting uni again next week so I have to get my stuff together really soon. I can't postpone it due to finances being on the move. Right now, I feel terrible...

And to think that the last 2 times we spoke on Skype only for couple of minutes (we rarely spoke more than 4-5 minutes a week for the last 2 years). Last 2 calls she wanted to talk to me out of our arranged talking time (I live abroad) because she missed me and I simply ignored her. We had a very complicated family and I was being too cold to her in the last couple of years. I wish I wasn't that cold to her, she didn't deserve it...

I now feel empty.

Just wanted to share that... Thank you for the spent time.