Ok so I have read through some posts here and figure I should share my own beliefs and experiences. So it seems as so often before that people enjoy that they have narcissistic tendencies, that they are better because of things like this. Well the way I see it is that most people like this suffer from being afraid of the true way they are. It's one thing to have NPD but what do we call the people that want to share the same title(as if this is a gift). They seem to be weak, abused in some way or another and feel that their own insight gains them something. Especially around these neck of the woods. It really bothers me to read certain things and people dancing around as if they are gifted. You are not, start being more honest with yourself. Sure narcissists are more fun then most but this is only for themselves. They do not care about you, they care about themselves and the way they are seen by all others. Making every move for a reason, one that gains their inner self to own self. I have NPD and the truth is I am better without people called friends. I cannot understand them and their needs nor do I really care. Am I writing this because I think it's fun, NO. It's the way it is. If I had a choice I would not be this. It would probably be nice to have the things you read about that others do. To be able to express and feel for REAL and not just a show. I know this is a place for people to exercise their right to free speech but at the same time I can dislike them immensely. Yes I have made many jokes here and found much humor in doing so but really this whole persona of being top is just another false belief. To be perfect is impossible, to be better than all, sure this works out. Really?? Come on let's stop beautifying the ugly and realize what is what. Some of us are just what others want to act as. If you share what I share happiness is only a word. Living in a world that creates rainbows and butterflies is not who we are. I live in the dark, in the way that it's almost a beautiful thing for a mind like my own. Creating a way to mimic is just ridiculous. Consider yourself lucky to not be diagnosed, to be one who wants to be like someone like me but is not. This is your lucky day, you are not one with NPD you are a person who can have things I cannot. The real is real, the truth is truth and so on and so on. You know every now and again I write in a format that just goes. This is one of them. Some will appreciate while others will not. Here I am free. What a great place to be!!
Love me,
Sir Underground