I understand so much of what you're saying. I'm well into middle age and have noticed I'm becoming more angry, tired and sick with the world. One thing I know is it gets especially bad when I'm feeding those feelings with negative thoughts. Shifting them in a more positive direction has become a daily practice, but sometimes even that doesn't work. There are times I have to tell myself to knock it off, because I'm becoming so exhausted, or simply accept the current situation for what it is.

At the heart of it though is a sense of shame and failure...it's as if I was born with those two feelings. And when I read your words I wanted to cry (don't worry you didn't upset me). I just understand the pain you're going through, and hope you'll give yourself a chance to realize you're more than those painful, angry feelings.