I have just finished writing it and anxiety is killing me again because of entities. They don't mind too much about me posting here since it's a safe place, like the safe place thread, but they know I want to tell this to my psychiatrist so they don't like it anymore. They know I can only tell him these things in written English and not in my mother tongue, they know that's why I am writing it here.

I am not that free but I am MORE free
than before.