[QUOTE=Thunder Bow;5275567][quote=The Green Manalishi;5274223]

It is easy to get caught up in it. That is because that is the way for you and you family to relate to each other. It is away of getting connection, without exposing one self emotionally.[/QUOTE


It's my closest few that still breathe that I would rather not relate to. They're toxic and try to control everything. Unfortunately, I'm not in a situation where I can distance myself, and it's a constant struggle with a certain one. Everyone loves her and thinks she's Mother f'n Teresa. If I told people how she really can be, they wouldn't believe it because she directs her wrath at me and then plays the victim. The old battle axe deserves an Oscar nod.

I don't want to be alone, but at the same time I should probably accept that I might be for the rest of my life. I've tried to bury the negativity, put aside my own emotional torture, listen to the needs of others, but it's always the same result. I don't exist.

I wish I could help others on PC, but I am not good with words. I don't blame anyone else, I know it's me.

It's ok though, my account is scheduled for deletion.

Thanks to those who responded.

Neil Young's "The Loner" plays in the background.