Feeling very, very down. I know that I should call someone, but I don't know who. It's difficult for me to ask for help, and I'm afraid of opening up to the wrong person. I'm afraid of the 'what-ifs'. At the same time, I'm afraid of what will happen if I don't let someone know just how bad it is right now. I don't really trust that my willpower will hold out for much longer.