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Old Sep 10, 2016, 12:43 AM
fosterthehuman fosterthehuman is offline
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i have major depression, anxiety, add, social anxiety. i've recently realized how difficult it's been on my bf. cause i've snapped at him before, given him attitude, i've done this with my parents before too. or i've asked for specific requests, like i'll say that i'll just stay in the car instead of going to into the store with him. i ask to stay in the room while he brings dinner for me so i won't have to go outside his room and socialize cause sometimes it makes me anxious. this week ik i've been really crabby with him, and though ik i'm on my period, it's not an excuse. i'm starting to realize that i don't deserve having a bf or having any friends if i decide to act like this. my bf has anger issues himself and will get upset at me if i do something wrong (usually he calls me names, insults me, he's hit me before once, pushed me a couple of times, grabbed me cause we would get into arguments and he'll tell me to shutup but i'll want to solve stuff and keep talking. cause of his rage and i think i'm the one who makes it worse. i realized that he's abusive and people have told me before, but i also think that i've neglected him and have been mean to him as well. so this is partly my fault and our issues or a lot my fault. i've been making efforts to work on my mental issues cause they've been getting quite worse (i'm joining a support group and made an appointment with a new therapist) i've also told my bf about my new steps in changing myself and that I apologize for the way i've been acting. i told him that he doesn't deserve that and that's not fair to him.he's told me that i've pushed him away before, made him feel like ****, he says that alot of times i don't listen to him. i've told him in the past that i never would do those things on purpose but it's cause of my mental issues. but i don't want to blame it on that anymore.

basically i realize that we both have issues to work on. but today, i told him that i feel like it's not fair that he wants me to work on my issues, but he hasn't been working on his. cause i asked him if he's going back to counseling about his anger and he hasn't.

also, i just read this article online that said that just cause you have mental illnesses, doesn't mean you get to be rude so i'm trying to change how i act. if anyone has advice that would help
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