Sound like your taking some steps toward addressing your important mental issues. That's good! We can encourage others to do the same and sometimes that can help them. However, if, in their heart, they don't want to change or are unable to admit they have a problem, they won't change. I encourage you to keep working on your own issues. As you learn and heal, I hope realize that you deserve to be with someone who treats you right. You said your bf hit you once before. I there is any chance at all it could happen again, you really need to stay away from him! Warm hugs! --Myst