Just looked up dysthymia, it is a serious state of chronic depression, which persists for at least two years. Maybe I can relate, I was depressed more than two years before my attempt. (Though I am not currently depressed.) However, if you read postings at this forum, a lot of people who post here have been seriously depressed for years and years. I truly wish that you and others who have suffered for so long can get some relief from your suffering and that some good things will find their way into your lives!