One day = 24 hours is a relative concept. I have a high speed rapid cycle lately, within 24 hours. I'd be manic for like 3 until 4 hours, depressed for 6 to 7 hours, sleep for 5 hours, depressed again for 3 hours, manic for 2 hours and sleep for 3 hours . There, I have 2 days within 24 hours. Last few weeks I have one day within 48 hours. I believe this sounds familiar to some of you.

I am not sure with the reason I make this thread. My thoughts are everywhere but the only body part that I can move is my fingers. Thank God they invented smart phone otherwise I'd be writing this on my wall since I couldn't get my body to use the laptop (please don't ask how do I use the bathroom, lol). I have anxiety and panic attacks too and it has been years since my last panic attacks. I think this happens because the depressive episode is severe. The main trigger is as I finally free from delusions (not 100% but maybe 75%), I now can see clearly that my life is a total mess. It's a very great relief but I need time to calm my self and face the fact before I can start working to fix it. I am trying to control my breath while I am writing this. Thank you for reading.