I know my T has always tried to respect my protests toward her going away but has never "used" them. Infact its my own narcissitic projection that is the problem, I percieve T as gaining some sadistic pleasure at her going away, but maybe its me that enjoy's those moments of being needed by others? I always use to feel T wasn't really getting how hard it was for me when she was gone, but she would always remind me that there are things I can do for myself while shes not there. I use to hate that, reminding me that I am now an adult and not totally incapable and that I do exist without her.