I'm sick of everything right now. Sick and tired. I love my family but my God I also hate them. I'm turning 24 and my life as an adult has not even begun. I'm tied hands and feet to my parents and there's no solution. I live at home, I never go out, I don't have any friends and I can't even buy myself a new pair of socks or a real haircut. I haven't had my hair cut since 2010 and I cut it myself because I give away all my money to my parents.

I got my parents in the center, they need my help because no one else can. I help them with everything, the house, financially and I keep them company because they're both introverts and then so am I. I got my sister who moved away at 18, got a boyfriend, a baby and an apartment, an education, everything; she looks down at me, expects me to help my parents and get a life of my own.
And then my brother who doesn't care about anything. He doesn't get it.

I do have a boyfriend, but because my life is like this, I doubt it'll last.

I want to move out, to live like I'm supposed to do, to do all the things I missed out on in my teenage years. But I can't. Because I'm expected to lift up my parents and be a helpful good daughter AND to get a life of my own.

I hate it all, I hate it so much and I want to cry but I can't. I'm dealing with so much that I feel like I'm going to explode. I want to scream at my parents, but I can't. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING BUT JUST SIT HERE AND WRITE ABOUT MY LIFE. I can't do anything.

My boyfriend won't wait forever, my time is running out and I'm wasting my young years. But I can't do anything about it. I can't say no to my family and leave them to rot here, I can't just say no to helping them out because I live here. It's and endless circle.

I just want to run away and never come back.