I was supposed to go to a day hospital everyday for activities and once a week with therapy with both a psychology and psychiatrist. I ended up messing everything up because entities didn't like it so I stopped seeing the psychologis after 2-3 times, never went to the activities more than once and saw my psychiatris once each 20 day. Three months ago I left and haven't seen anyone in these three months.

So this Tuesday 6th I gave a 5 pages long letter to my psychiatrist trying to explain him what it's happening.

On Friday 9th I called him asking for some clonazepam and he gave an appointment for nex Friday 16th. He said he read the letter and offered me the appointment even if I didn't ask for it.

I was thinking on leaving another letter, this one, on Tuesday 13th.

''On friday appointment I would like to talk about...
1. What to do with the day hospital.
2. What to do with therapy and my mind.

+More time I am far from the day hospital more easier it's for entities to convince me I have to leave. So I was thinking on giving this to the nurse on 13 Tuesday so i stay in touch and entities don't gain that much power.

+I have things I want to talk about, so I was thinking of writing them down and give it to you on friday appointment so we can talk about them on next appointments. I cant talk about them by my own if there is not a basis.
I am sorry if I am being over demanding, I am just trying to find a way to communicate without ,leaving or wasting time in sessions.'

The letter I want to give him on Friday 16th has 2 and 1/3 pages, but I don't have any other way to explain myself.

Is it too much?
am I misbehaving?