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Old Sep 10, 2016, 11:58 AM
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Overtime I've noticed I've become pretty afraid of confronting others about things that are bothering me that may have to do with them. A few years ago as a teen I was a bit better at it but I've grown to be downright scared of people. A friend yesterday got upset with me because she found out from a mutual friend that I had been hiding some of the things that had been hurting me (about her) from a while ago. I remained pretty passive during the conversation for fear of her getting angry at me. It was going alright but near the end she accused me of something pretty unfair and I expressed a little more frustration in my typing manner (nothing insulting or rude), which led her to end the conversation right then and there, apologizing. I apologized more...because I felt like I had done something terrible and shouldn't have "lost my cool." Despite her saying it's fine, I can't stop thinking about it and wondering if she's saying mean things about me behind my back to other people who know me. She's a bit of an intimidating person...and it's typically the intimidating types of people who I have a hard time being honest about my feelings with, because I'm very very scared of their reaction.

I don't have this problem with people REALLY close to me, but that number is small, so that leaves me fearing confronting most other people.
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