Hello motherofgreatkids: Well... I will tell you that what you did wouldn't constitute a drop in my bucket! And, yes, I sincerely believe anyone who really knew me would not want to have anything to do with me. Hell... I don't even want to have anything to do with me! But I don't have any choice. My response has simply been to become as completely reclusive as it is possible for me to be. I consider it to be my gift to the world.

In your case it may just be something that would benefit from spending some time talking it all through with a therapist. I know you wrote you had received a diagnosis from a psychiatrist. I also have a psychiatrist. Plus I've also been seen by other psychiatrists & I've seen a few different therapists over the years. My experience has been that every mental health professional I've seen seems to have a little different take on what going on with me. As a result, I personally don't put too much stock in diagnoses because I know that they can-&-do change over time & from one mental health provider to another.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!