I'm making a sincere attempt to be as brutally honest with myself as possible. And I like to ask other people what they would do, if they could imagine themselves in my position... and to get their input.

Suffice it to say... "yes", I do need to dispute my beliefs.

I've actually survived and endured a lot in my life. And the evidence suggests I will continue to do so. But, I still like to think through these issues, in order to keep up my stamina.

From time to time, life even looks enjoyable, and I have some well-deserved self-respect.

The last couple of months, I came across what some call a spiritual practice. It entails enjoying the moment. Any moment... If done correctly, that enjoyable moment can last for quite a while. It may sound silly, but THIS moment is the only time any of us can truly be happy. And there is literally nothing that can keep one from enjoying it.

The goal of all this self-analysis is to enjoy life. To truly flourish as a human being.