Hi guiltier,

You're absolutely right, it is the illness
But the illness and the thoughts that come along with it don't define who you are underneath all of that............so this might not really help but...........let me be another voice refuting what the illness is telling you............from reading your threads underneath the cloak of depression...........you ARE very caring, very insightful, very empathetic, you have shown tremendous strength, you DO have a lot of admirable qualities

And the age and weight concerns..........well to me, those things don't measure a persons worth either good or bad............it's who you are that counts.........and to me..........from your threads guiltier.........you are a good person, whatever the depression tells you

AlisonSave