I so get it. Among my MI's I struggle with a rage problem and I'm always talking down about life in general. You can say I'm a huge Debbie downer. Hell, I'm mad right now and having very negative feelings towards my family. Long story but I feel hate right now and I feel it often. There is no gray period for me. Everything is black and white and I either love, or hate. I know this is probably something I should work on with my T.