Hello dyanor453: I'm sorry you are feeling so empty & self-hating. I was also an only child. My parents are both deceased. But I would have to say I didn't really love, or miss, them either. I have always preferred to be left alone. In fact, at this point in my life (I'm an older person now) I do live a pretty reclusive lifestyle.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

P.S. Your post was not too long...