you are a very strong person alex.
i don't understand the 't' relationship ... but i think you are way bigger than feeling upset over him .... which you seem to be quite a bit.
i know you have had parental issues. one thing i have always wanted to know is ... well
i lost my mum at 17 and i have always wondered if it's worse to lose a parent or have them leave.
at least yours are still alive?
not trying to upset you ... just putting something out there ... i'd give anything to have two parents.