Hey Venusss ! I do think that PTSD is a big part of your struggle trying to make sense of things. You encounter things that the vast majority of members here on PC can't imagine, myself included.

I'm not handling the political mess here in the US very well , I have needed to be and ostrich and just stick my head in the sand and avoid it all at times.

Are you able to take a trip to somewhere that can give you some breathing room ? I know you always love to travel.