I'm having problems where in therapy and by my pdoc, although maybe they are trying to be helpful by pointing out that I'm working, they seem to use this to dismiss anything else I bring up. Not always, but I just hate when the conversation goes back to the fact that I managed to get a degree and work. My racing thoughts won't stop....the anxiety, the self-hatred, not sleeping, the self-destructive behavior, etc. I'm getting so tired of certain mental health professions continuing to label people "high functioning" vs "low functioning," because this does not encompass the kind of emotional pain someone might be going through and all the problems caused by it. Especially with all the challenges BP poses. In fact, sometimes its the very people who appear to "have it together" who end up surprising everyone when they have a break down or something bad happens to them as a result of their mental health (I've been there before too). I know I work and that I have some skills, but it will never fix what's going on with me on the inside. So many days I just want to give up. Today, I even had to take off, because my mind wouldn't shut off, and I'm overusing my benzos. Rant over.