So I started a new job yesterday and I was really hoping that this would help with my stress and anxiety over not having a job. But that has only give me more time to focus on my OCD. The range of my emotions is pretty much limited to the following; frustration, anger, irritation, and depression. I wake up with these emotions, go to work with these emotions, and go to bed with these emotions. My life has pretty much been a three month long "**** show" with brief interruptions of happiness. So I've grown really sick of it and would love some kind of relief. It seems no matter where I go or what I do these thoughts and emotions are with me. I just put on a brave face to keep the scared little boy hidden from the world. Im honestly starting to believe that I have a death wish; which such a drastic thought in my opinion.