I think that everyone is supposed to be given unconditional love by their mother at birth and throughout life. If you have this one person who loves you no matter what, then you can move on to other relationships like the adult kind because you've had that security. Without it, you are stuck that way because it is a need.

I'm the same way. I don't care about an adult relationship. I feel like the only thing I want or need is a mother and I put all the energy most people put into a partner into finding a mother. I've come close a few times, but it never works out. People assume that because time has gone by that means I'm just automatically supposed to grow with it. But if I don't get it, I stay a child who needs it as much as a child does. It's like expecting a flower to grow with no water.

I've tried to be in relationships before because everyone else does and society said it's what I'm supposed to do. The issue is that I never actually WANT to be around the person. I avoid them at all costs. Sex grosses me out-the times I've had it make me sick and I don't want to remember them. I hate how adults make everything about sex this or that or I can't innocently say something without someone making a sex reference. Not only does it trigger me but it upsets me that I can't have anything be innocent like I want it to be because of my age.

I can't stand when men like me. I dress in plain clothes and no makeup so that helps.