I had an attack just like that where I blacked out. The person had screen shots of my texts and when I seen it, I was so embarrassed. But I couldn't explain to them that it was a BP episode because this person is ignorant as all hell. It's definitely alarming when you lose control. It scared me! Now as far as triggers.. My dad is a trigger for me and I haven't been to his house in months and we live in the same city. Just today we got in a fight and I called him some nasty stuff. I'm not proud. Maybe you can work with a T about your anger issues and definitely tell pdoc about these blackouts. As far as your gf goes... Do you really want to be in this verbally abusive relationship? You're both abusive with tempers and that's a nasty mix.