I need some advice in what is happening with me, I dont have alters as far as I no, But I do other strange things, I have done so many things that I dont remember doing, People will tell me things I have done and I have no memory of these things at all, I have thrown away so many things and I never new I was doing it, I have thrown away brand new things I just bought at the store, I have thrown away sentimental things, I dont know when I am doing it or why I am doing it, I have Cptsd and I was suppose to be a trauma program but when I start talking about my past I get actual physical pain in my head and I want to run out of the room to get some fresh air, I have had abuse and abandonment issues since the day I was born, And so much abuse in my life from childhood to adulthood, I have layer upon layer of things that gave happened to me like a cake they said, I have had to be a survivour