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Sep 11, 2016, 03:17 AM
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Originally Posted by musinglizzy
So, I know a lot of you know what my story is with T1, if not, here's the thread...
http://forums.psychcentral.com/psych...-its-gone.html
Since T1 so abruptly took that away (and much more), I finally found T3, who I thought was exactly what I'd been waiting for. She is a somatic experiencing therapist whose focus is on body work. I came to eventually loving my sessions with her, even though some were painful), and looking forward to therapy with her. I've been seeing her since February. Well, I had "something" happen over the weekend that was upsetting, but not entirely traumatic for me. I guess I made the mistake of telling her about this, because I had a session with her yesterday (that was scheduled for an hour and a half) and turned out I left after 20 minutes, storming out of the room.
She's taking the body/table work away, because of something I told her, because she doesn't want to retraumatize. She said once I'm more stable in a couple months, we can do it again. I do NOT agree with her. I needed that table session BAD yesterday.....and told her so. I told her I'm getting really effing tired of everyone else knowing whats in my best interest better than I do. Eventually, I told her to take me off the schedule.
Even T1 said I have improved some since the bodywork (kinda like a mixture of reiki and massage), and I know it has helped me immensely. I told her I needed it badly today.
This T, who only lives a mile down the road from me, I know likes me quite a lot. Just in her words and actions. But here's now another T who chooses to make a HUGE change without discussing it with me. She said she spoke to a couple of mentors about me. No one cares what I think, nor do they give me the option to argue my case. They are like effing God, they have our hearts right in the palm of their hands. So, I'm done with T3, who was getting to the point of her being my ONLY T. I was finding more help with her....
I'm devastated. Again. And I'm not even over the first time with T1....
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME????? I just don't think I'm a good candidate for therapy at all. |
There's nothing wrong with you. It's therapy that has something wrong with it. Therapy is carried out be humans and we are all fallible and imperfect. I'm sorry you are going through this again! Something that struck me was that your T mentioned her mentors thought this was for the best. I guess that means she was unsure herself, and perhaps continues to be unsure. Sometimes in my therapy my T's have referred back to a previous conversation with something that seemed like someone else's voice. At those times I've thought that I was hearing the voice of their supervisor. It often seemed incongruent and out of step with our relationship.
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