Hello all,
First thank you to everybody who was in my corner, having this place as an added part of my support network is amazing.

So I don't even remember when, but a "couple"? of days ago I stopped seeing the angels and the demons, and I stopped listening to what they were telling me to do. I also got reassigned to a different PDoc, one who was willing to talk to MY outside PDoc. Things changed drastically for me. I started going to groups, I found some medications that we could all agree upon adding to my cocktail(wish that were a grey goose martini ) And I stopped fighting it.

I am still hypo as ^^&* but I can maintain at this level. I have done and said all of the things that they want of me. They have agreed to let me out this morning around 10. I start IOP on Monday, and I should get the results of my genetic testing Monday as well. That will help with the med changes going forward.
My new med plan adds Depakote with a slow taper off of the seroquel, and it replaces my Clonazapam with Geoden?(slow taper there also) or maybe it is GabaPentin? I don't exactly remember. They want to blame the psychotic break on the increased level of Benzo. I am not sure I buy into that, but my PDoc told me privately that she is willing to put me back on Kpin if I need it. she is not into watching patients suffer. She did say that if I go back on it I need to accept that I will be physically dependant on it. She also helped me differentiate addiction and dependence. I think that helps me a lot.

Thankfully work is allowing me to switch shifts for 3 weeks so I can go into the IOP program, my boss has a BP sister so she gets it.

Well I have to let somebody else use the computer so farewell for now, thanks again for all of the support and I am sorry if I triggered anybody or said anything offensive or combative.