I just went back and read your past posts. they say you have bipolar disorder, CPTSD, diabetes and psychosis back and other body parts pain and you are taking medications for all of these things.....

based on this that tells me that your treatment providers have you on some medications. medications for mental disorders can cause a person to do the things you have posted in this thread.

my suggestion is contact your treatment provider that is over seeing your medications. they can adjust your medications if needed to where you wont feel dissociative and wont still have as much of your pain, and control your panic\anxiety that comes with having bipolar, diabetes...

I also saw in past posts you may have been trying to diet, limit your intake of carbs and other stuff... one thing about diabetes is that when attempting to diet and not following the right eating habits can also cause a diabetic person to forget things and do and have the symptoms you posted about

with all this information I am even more sure that you need to contact your treatment providers and that they will know how to fix it so that you wont be having these problems, in fact given all this information they are the only ones that can tell you what the problem is and what is the best way for you to get to feeling better. there are just so many different elements here that point to this problem could very well be a problem associated to your other health issues and medications.