haven't thought about it until now, i am 19 and i have been behaving like this for the past couple of years until now, but didn't care or thought i could be a narcissist until now. I simply wasn't interested back then. :?

I find myself to have A HUGE problem when i think i am correct in something and someone disagree with me. I think that when i think something is correct, IT IS correct, so when people criticize me for it i jump out on them and get upset. One other common trait i posses is wishing people bad luck and suffering in life, which in turn makes me happy for some reason. I don't know why, but it just gives me motivation to live when i see people around me suffer.

I NEED attention and people to admire me, it just makes me feel good about myself and i LOVE it, I want people to love me and I HATE seeing people who are above me, it makes me VERY angry for some reason, even if i DON'T KNOW them. For example, i see someone better looking than me and i
am thinking on how to put them down, without knowing them. This connects to what i said previously about wanting people to suffer.

I am OBSESSED with money and materialistic possessions and do not care about people in the slightest. Friends are worthless to me. As long as i am on top of everyone, i am nice to people and think i am cool. I don't have friends and i am anti-social and only like to hang out with people who are less successful/uglier/less intelligent than me.

Lastly, I always think that people do not give me enough credit for what i am doing, i feel like i deserve to be treated better by people, but i am not. It is killing me. I just want POWER over people and want people to respect/fear me and i am desperate to be treated like this. I always end up BITTER. I don't know what to do.

Any ideas/help? :?