I've been feeling down and really worthless. I have so much education and experience. I am on SSD and the longer I am on it the more I feel like a worthless s**t. I have a great apartment in the Midwest...I left California about three years ago because SSD wasn't cutting it financially there. I was forced to leave the life I choose 35 years ago!!! I must confess I am doing better with the depression... my meds were changed about a year and a half ago and seemed to make a difference. I'm just venting... I've spent so much time in MDD that I really don't like feeling down at all..... it sucks.