I don't feel bad about it anymore, although last year I would. It's hard to get a replacement for my position too. I've yet to return to work after my last episode that resulted in hospitalization about a month ago. My work needs a doctor's note to go back after being out for 3 days, and I've been out almost 30 and have yet to get that note. I plan on going back this weekend and only working fridays through sundays.