I mostly respect myself and mostly like myself. I think I am special to me, eh, that sounded weird but yea...

But I don't love myself. Not even in my most selfish or self developing moments have I loved myself.

I haven't known that for THAT long. I thought if you didn't hate yourself you sort of loved yourself.

I don't love anyone human. I can be very very very attached to a handful of people. I wish them well. I help when I can. I LIKE them.

But I don't love them. And I think self love is like loving someone else. So because I can't, I can't be the object of my own love either.

I have a few more "tender" feelings towards people as I age, especially towards my elderly family, so maybe I'm just maturing very slowly or something. I never had that before.

I don't really have much affective empathy ether, and none towards myself... I know empathy by definition is for someone else but... I don't know what to call it otherwise.

Love... dunno what it is.