A lot in history is very dramatic, with quite times between. I feel this will go on forever, that it is part of humankind. I don't want that. I used to believe in world peace as a child, that it was possible. Then I believed our times were totally special (cold war), but then that changed too...

I somehow think we are in some turmoil right now, there is a lot of tension even where there is still peace. Something is brewing. I'm not scared, but I am aware. I never thought this would last.

People say the western world is forever but all civilizations have perished eventually. People think technology will only go forward but a regression could happen, like why not?

People are a bit blind. I think they live more one day at a time than I do. Their lives are already full. Maybe also they don't want to feel unsafe. I always felt unsafe since very young so it doesn't bother me the same.

It IS weird that people just go on about everyday type troubles when the world is on fire. But... it was before as well, just not this close in space and time. People survived mentally by trying to keep normalcy. I think most people work like that.

I am lucky to have friends I can talk to. My life goes fast from the big to the small and back. I have stopped trying to control it. Me and friend can curse because the Pokemon we wanted ran away and the next sentence can be about something totally life and death. Maybe we're weird people.